It's starting to creep back in. I thought I had put this stupid crush behind me. It was supposed to be a phase. In order to no longer want to be with Pete, I had to have intense feelings for somebody else. So naturally I would pick the guy least likely for anything to actually happen with. Now that I am much less connected to Pete, the feelings for Ken had been dissapating. But the last couple days they seem to be back full on. I don't know why. I haven't even spoken to him in the last two weeks, other than the occasional e-mail.

I had almost stopped even thinking that way. But now, for no reason at all, it's back.